i'm drowning..

yea..im drowning...dunno why i said so...i just feel that im drowning...
it was so hard for me to breath... i need fresh air... where am i drown in?? erm...dunno...
i think drown in boredom.. but tonight im trying to make myself busy so that i wont feel bored or lonely... tonite alone at home again.. i watch movie for whole night... although at home can online but i prefer movie.. so that i wont think of anything... is it right??
almost half year i didnt rewind back my past memories alrd...but las nite i suddenly think our memories and time together...although it was short...but it stil my memories... but nvm just keep it as a memories and keep in my history book..haha.. rewind back when im need some happiness.. o this will be a sadness... nono it have to be happiness... because it already 3 years time...so no more sadness for me..ok? wen, got it?? happiness not sadness....
then today didnt think of anyone rite? tell me the truth ok...hmm..i also dunno...
i think i dont want to write alr... i need to sleep because i want to avoid from thinking something useless...
that's all for wen today....