how It ReallY fEels???

suddenly i can feels that the pain being rejct by someone you loved..im wrote this blog not because i being reject by someone else..it just my thinking... suddenly feels that if i am being reject i sure will very pain and dunno how will it be... i maybe being dumped by someone else but never being reject.....reject is not same with being dumped...at least they accept and then just dumped... they not straightly reject me. it sounds like i likes to 'pikat'...no i it was just onced...
when im in KL feel lonely then try to ask him..then he said ok..but after 3 days he dump me.. but this i still feels ok because that was just because i am lonely.. i just need someone to accompany me...this was all past tense.. i just give an example... now, i really scare i wil reject by someone i love... thats y i not dare to take any actions... i just watch a show just now.. the girls being reject in front of her frens and hosts... the girls use true heart to treat the guys but the guys feel 'fed up'... and said they can only be best frens.. OMG..that was really hurt... although im not the girl, i feel the same as the girl.. my tears coming down too...
anyway, better dont take any action just wait for the MR right to take actions... you just sit and wait...! got it!! because i dont wat to feel the pain of being reject... i dont like to crys.. i dont want being reject, what i wants is happy life and goos boy friends...a bf that love me more than i love him...hahaha..thats all