gOoD dAugHtEr??~

am i a good daughter?? no i don't think so...everyone got their emo time..but think back did i did anything good to my parents o family??i think back last sunday.i going back hometown.. and i quarrel with them bout transports....since my mom said wana buy a new car..so there will an extra car at home. y don't they let me bring the car...? but they reject my request...so i 'mogok'... sit alone outside my house and think my problem all alone.. when i going back hometown, i got a little bit rush..so i forget to brings my student bill home and the deadlines on monday.. so my mom said me ' y can i forget the so important thing'...but for sure everyone can forget anything.. juz a piece of paper..sure i wil forget... but then on that day..i feel little bite emotional..because im going back pg again...i dun wan back...for me, going back pg is like going to hell...at penang i feel bored and lonely... i even feel ashamed bcoz i everyday will find frens to help me find food...they will feel annoying...i everynite will sms o call them..i really feel paise... but wat can i do..if i din make my face little bit thick i have to eat grass ad.. around my hostel there got no food o any restaurant...got oso v have to go by transport...bcoz its too far to walk there... then,while im packing my luggage and ready home my mom trying to find way to solve my bill problem..she asking me some question and i replied vf loud voice... i feel annoy.. bcoz i dun wan back pg and so many question asking from her... then se scold me' you make mistake already stil talk vf me f so loud voice'..i suddenly feel so sorry and my tears coming down... then another 1 is my bro.!! i oledi shut down my laptop and let it cool..but he saw my laptop off so he on it and online again...he can use the desktop but he dun wan..then i saw him on and scold him.i close already y u open it??then he said a while only...i ask him cant u use te desktop.? then he said i wan use laptop a.. a while only...walau i damn hot..i said u noe after u use it will be very hot and how i wanna keep it into bag..then he dun stil sign in his frenster and looking at his comment..walau..damn geram... after that he off it and going downstairs without close it properly...then b4 that my dad got told me that the new car will reach at tuesday..so on tuesday nite..i saw my bro on9..so i ask him is it the car reac ad...but he said my mom cancel it ad...then i ask him y..? he said bcoz im uh seh..bcoz i wanna bring the extra car to pg...wtf... they dunno how my situation at all...they thought the place i stay very convenience isit.. i wana bring car juz easier me to have my meal...but my bro said if i got car sure will be very playful..wtf... then i said bcoz got extra so i wana bring..but then he said if no extra leh...then i said i eat grass lo..then he tel me...ok,then u go eat grass...wat the fuck...i really cannot tahan and close the chat box and dun wan chat vf him... today wednesday nite... ah jo and me chat bout many topics..1 of them are are v a good daughter.. ya v r not....just sometime v got some emo so v treat them bit bad. but they dont understand us at all.. such as my parents...they dun understand hw my situation at pg here... hard to find food and hard to go anywhere without transport....everyday have to ma huan frens.. i oso got face 1..i oso will feel ashamed...but y they cant understand me...?? tis few days there are no days that i feel happy...everyday are sux... everyday are lonely day...and everyday will appear him..tats y i am suffer...when will him gone in my life???